1. |
Anita
02:43
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Anita - G. Wade (aka, Gwade)
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Somewhere in my mind
Are the buried remains
Of the memories of a woman
Who used to cause me pain
She left me in the patter
Of the cool summer rain
And since that empty morning
Nothing's been the same
The past is dangerous
Too dangerous for me
My mind gets lost inside it
Much too easily
And then I lose my mind
Trying to be free
It's just too much to take
It's just too much for me
Anita
I need you
Don't send me back to Jersey
I'm not done loving you
But once in awhile
I like to indulge
And just a taste of that memory
Keeps my belly full
As feelings for you
Bounce around my skull
The drain on my energy
Is just a gentle lull
Anita
I need you
Don't send me back to Jersey
I'm not done loving you
Anita
Anita
Don't send me back to Jersey
I'm not done loving you
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2. |
October
05:06
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October - Gwade
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I woke up shivering
And watched my breath spill from my mouth
And kicked myself with a frozen foot
For long ago not moving south
And I thought of just what kept me here
Instead of sleeping on the sand
I gave up cool margueritas
For the warmth of your hand
And I tried everything
To keep the fire hot
Thousands of candles to make the inside
As warm as the snow was not
And I thought I thought of everything
To make our bond an airtight seal
I could change the climate
(but I couldn't) Change how you feel
(Your) Hot hands
(And) Cold heart
Were touching me softly but
Tearing me apart
Don't start
(Because I'll) Never be warm again
I guess I should've seen
The cold reality
The first time I saw ice in your eyes
As they burned into me
But despite all the heated dialogue-
Frozen logic, frozen views
I still saw the warmth inside
The coldest part of you
(Your) Hot hands
(And) Cold heart
Were touching me softly but
Tearing me apart
Don't start
(Because I'll) Never be warm again
Sometimes
You have to face the cold, hard fact
That the one you shared so much warmth with
Is never coming back
(And) All I ever wanted is
The feeling of your warm, wet kiss
And to know our steamy promises
Were more than just hot air
I don't care if I never
See the sun again
It only makes me shiver
And want to return to when
The leaves were falling colors
A million unfilled balloons
In the beginning of October
I never saw the end of June
(Your) Hot hands
(And) Cold heart
Were touching me softly but
Tearing me apart
Don't start
(Because I'll) Never be warm again
Never be warm again
Never be warm again
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3. |
Wrong Thing
04:50
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i drove 'til i saw i was lost in
some city that resembled boston
from the air
but being on another coast
i knew the car had made the most
of getting there
now that i neared my destination
i left it at its new location
and just walked away
and you may not want me anymore
but when i find your front door
here's what i'll say
sometimes the wrong thing
is the right thing to do
i will find you, i will find you
as i walk the mem'ries come
got time to visit every one
like a dear old friend
the flower smell of your shampoo
hits me like it was brand new
all over again
laughing over frozen mudslides
crying on amusement park rides
falling head-first off the bedside
swimming in the full moon's tide
driving hours just to touch you
the blinding snow we had to cut thru
you'll soon find out just how much you (still) mean to me!
ch:
sometimes the wrong thing
is the right thing to do
i will find you, i will find you
(there's an unfinished bridge about walking all night or something.)
as new sunlight sings to me
i think i found my destiny
on a quiet street
the phone book told me you live here
but i feel the spark now that i'm near
turning into heat
and i'm reciting lines like it was King Lear
to an actor trying to save his career
from certain hell
but i can't recall a fucking thing
so i just smile as i reach up and ring
your door bell
(and i finally say)
ch:
sometimes the wrong thing
is the right thing to do
i will find you, i will find you
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4. |
Blood In The Sand
02:45
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Twelve steps beyond the border
A shot fired through my leg
(It's) Just my luck, (I've) been shot three times today
With one horse, a mule and water
And her daddy's fat nest egg
My only need was to blaze a trail away
Blood in the sand
Let it represent all for which I stand
Let the red rocks rise up from this curs-ed land
She should never forgive me
But I hope someday
She will understand
(She wanted) Me and I had to have her
Even though she wasn't mine
A new son-in-law had her hand but not her heart
As I snuck out of the manor
With all the diamonds from the mine,
A memory, and other works of art
Blood in the sand
Reminds me of the moment that we spanned
Of the stolen ring not on her tender hand
She should never have released me
But I hope someday
She will understand
(And) I dragged my carcass through the desert
Escaping my own fate
Hallucinations filled with pleasure
While buzzards congregate
Just one thing kept me from going
A hope we all await...
Now I stumble through a pasture
On a Mexican plateau
My wounds have healed but it's been a painful time
Seems like yesterday, not last year
I was running from my foes
It's so nice of them to pay for (all) my crimes
Blood in the sand
It's what I left behind to become a better man
And there she sits, at the place that we had planned
She has come to be beside me
And I'm glad today
She did understand
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5. |
Biker Song
05:38
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BIker Song - Gwade
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Daily life destroys our senses
Yeah, I saw it on TV
I'm not one for heeding fences
They don't mean that much to me
-
God gave us the Earth to play on
But the Devil makes us work
Just need a hill for my head to lay on
And some coffee I can perk
-
And if you listen to what's flowin' on the breeze
You will hear my battle call
Sometimes the road . less-traveled
Is the best . road of all
-
A little boy stuck in the back seat
Of his swearing dad's old car
Parked in city rush hour main streets
Not going very far
-
At that age where moments matter
The waiting seemed to never end
Now with all ambitions shattered
I will never wait again
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Which is worse, the consequence of nothing done
Or the joy of saying 'Fuck it all!'?
Sometimes the road . less-traveled
Is the best . road of all
-
(bridge)
-
A simple life with simple pleasures
Sounds simply beautiful
But drastic times call for drastic measures
And my plate is way too full (or "when the plate is way too full")
-
(But) Every tiny undertaking
Shouldn't hollow out a hole
When the ground below starts shaking
It's time to take back some control
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It's so indicative of every mountain climbed
Every step could be a fall
Sometimes the road . less-traveled
Is the best . road of all
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6. |
Country Song
05:02
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I don't know what to do
I wanna be with you
But it's an impossibility
To make that reality
Come true
(You see) there's someone else
To whom I gave myself
(And) though I have all these regrets
This is what I get
Oh well
This ain't how the story's supposed to end
But here we are
Wishing that I didn't want to say
Your place or my car
But the choice has been made
The plans are all set
All of my friends
Are losing their bets
And I can spend my time
Touching you and
Loving her
Or here at the bar
I don't know how to say
I don't want this to end this way
And it's not that this is bad
Whatever 'this' we once had
Hasn't gone away
This isn't how I wanted this to end
But watch me now
Trying to forget all this (building)
Somehow
But I don't want to forget
I want to recall
The smell, and the touch, and the
Taste of it all
And I can spend my time
Losing her and
Holding you
Or here at the bar
Something's wrong - NO!
That's not quite right;
Everything's gone wrong
But which is right?
Being with the one
To whom I'd trust my life
(Or) Being with the one
Who I (softer) asked to be my wife
I don't know why I feel like this
Like I can't breathe without your kiss
Like without you I'm diseased
The way your eyes tease me
Is what I'll miss
This ain't how the story's supposed
to end
But here we are
Wishing that I didn't want to say
Your place or my car
But the choice has been made
The plans are all set
All of my friends
Are losing their bets
And I can spend my time
Touching you and
Loving her
Or here at the bar
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Linda dropped me off tonight and as she drove away
The fog drifted through the night, waiting to be burned off by the day
And as I went to sleep tonight with her spirit by my side
I dreamt of Linda in the light, a tissue dabbed at her face as she cried
I asked her what was wrong, she said "Nothing, dear! I'm fine!
I was just going back to another time,
A younger, naive, little girl who might as well be blind.
Sometimes it's so hard to ease all the feelings
In my mind!"
We chatted for a while about the years gone by
About her little baby Kyle, and all the reasons why he had to die.
She said that that was through, and the pain had been erased.
I didn't tell her that I knew she was lying by the look on her face.
I asked her what she did, she said "Nothing, there was no time.
I just closed everything, and I almost lost my mind.
A younger, naive, little girl who might as well be blind.
Sometimes it's so hard to ease all the feelings
In my mind!"
Linda picked me up today, the morning made her smile
She said, "Let's just spend the day driving through the sunlight for a while."
I didn't answer back, and I guess I turned away.
She fought the question back, but eventually, she couldn't make it stay.
She asked me what was wrong, I said "Nothing, dear! I'm fine!
I was just going back to another time,
A younger, naive, little girl who might as well be blind.
Sometimes it's so hard to ease all the feelings
In my mind!"
And as I thought about it more, I held her a little longer... in my mind...
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8. |
Come Home
05:10
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Come Home - Gwade
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Anything your heart desires
I'd give it all to you.
A hundred little forest fires
Burn inside for you.
Anything your heart desires
Can be made by love.
Everything that you've acquired
Your heart was dreaming of.
Every grudge we held is gone
Come home. It's been much too long.
Maybe you're right.
Maybe I'm wrong for you
But maybe tonight
I'll sing this song for you
And hope that you see every insecurity,
Every second of waiting and screaming for purity.
It's okay, you can be sure of me.
I'm not running away.
Everything your heart desires
I will give to you.
You are my only heart's desire
And all I want is you.
When you hear this special song
Come home. It's been much too long.
Too long_. Too long_.
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9. |
Put It Down
04:09
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Put It Down - Gwade
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She's not coming back this way
Back to Southern California
What's done is done
Time to move on with movin' on
This time around
I'll stand up before I'm finished falling down
This time around
I won't pick it up if I can't put it down
Put it down
Put it down
Nothing hurts and nothing wears away
In Southern California
No boundary lies
Between what's real and surreal
This time around
I'll prune the vine before the fruit starts turning brown
This time around
I won't pick it up if I can't put it down
Put it down
Put it down
How could anyone see the darkness
when surrounded by the sun?
I'm never goin' back that way
Back from Southern California
I said all I had to say
And what's left I'll scream at the waves
This time around
I'll stand up before I'm finished falling down
This time around
I won't pick it up if I can't put it down
Put it down
Put it down
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10. |
Half Moon
03:37
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Half Moon - Gwade
+++++++++
I just wanna make out with you until dawn
Then we'll see which side of the field we're on
If it's west / then we sure- / -ly will fry. / If it's east
then it's best / and like flour- / -escent dye,
The day will be released
--
I just wanna embrace you and sleep `til noon
And if the the sun's harsh glare wakes us up too soon
With my hands / I will shield / the bright sun / from your eyes
Then the tans / of the field / one by one / will subside
And my plans / once concealed / have begun
To shed every disguise
Half moon
I'm dreaming of you again
Half moon
I'm drinking you in again
And I can't / quite recall / where I left / my respect.
Like an ant / on a wall / I'm bereft / of direc--tion.
--
I would give it all up if you asked me to
Or we could just roll in the morning dew
I would love / to repeat / this grand ex- / perience
In awe of / all the heat / filled with sex / and pretense
Rise above / the deceit, / let's reflect
In future perfect tense
(Then it will have all made sense)
Half moon
Touching my heart again
Half moon
Can't wait to start again
We will have / echoed back, / reminisced / with a smile
How the laugh- / -ter attack / would persist / all the while--we were kissin'
Half moon
I'm dreaming of you again
Half moon
I'm drinking you in again
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11. |
Broken Wing
06:56
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Broken Wing - Gwade
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I could make a career
Out of singin' your blues
If I wanted to crash that hard,
I could watch the Evening News
Don't be upset
I'm not out the door quite yet
But just remember this
Any time you feel regret
Behind every broken wing
(is) Something that shattered the bones within
So don't let me hear you scream
About ruffled feathers
I could spend my whole life
Just payin' your dues
I'm the one that has to keep shelling out
Because you have too much to lose
Don't be afraid
It's just a story that I made up
So just remember this
When you tell me you're all paid up
Behind every broken wing
(is) Something that shattered the bones within
So don't let me hear you complain
Because you missed that plane
With a little time
You can fly again
All it takes is time
You can fly again
If you will....
In a little bit
When everyone else tires of your shhhhh, baby
Don't quit
n' Dont throw a fit
Because here I still sit
(And I'll be here) by your side forever more...
I could carve out a canyon
With a river of your tears
Watch it flow through the desert,
The grass would grow green for years
Don't take offense
I'm just trying to make some sense
Cause things between us
They're getting too intense
Behind every broken wing
(is) Something that shattered the bones within
So don't let me hear you cry
Because you're high and dry....
With a little time
You can fly again
All it takes is time
You can fly again
If you will....
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12. |
Happy New Year
03:42
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Happy New Year - Gwade
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Let down by you
You left me standing in the snow
And you've left me standing here before
But I had nowhere else to go...
Let go of me
I don't deserve this pain
But I'll be still be standing here
When the snow turns into rain
Then when you want me
Reason gives way to the rush
And I give in to your touch / perhaps a bit too much
And I know that I'd be better off
Running into walls
But everytime you call / I fall / In love with you again
(But) Let me take a stand!
The way you treat me isn't fair
I want so . much . more
And I know that you don't care
Lang syne, my dear
My old acquaintance still remains
We'll take a cup of kindness over here
To clear my busy brain
I can't imagine life
Without you by my side
But when you take me for a ride / I keep it all inside
And even after the morning
When we wake up in a haze
This occasional liaison / stays on / my. cra. zy. mind...
Let the saints be praised
I don't believe what I see
Three hours late and drunk
But I'm ecstatic that you stumbled into me
So let it snow, let it snow, let it snow (all night)
Now that you're here
When morning comes, you'll leave me again
But tonight - tonight - tonight (stop)
It's my happy new year
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13. |
Better Lovers
06:33
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Better Lovers - Gwade
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I don't know why
You came here tonight
But I'm happy and excited
When you drop by
The fire burns bright-
ly but I need you to ignite it
But I will not repent,
And there will be no lament
For a love that's surreptitious
And it's always been clear
That our love is sincere-
ly - Sinful and delicious
You don't have to leave
Right now
But you should
I'd love for us to stay
Right now
Underneath the covers
(There's) Nothing to achieve,
No vows
To do good
A little disarray
Somehow
Will make us better lovers
I don't know why
We get so uptight
(With the) Things we lack control of
Let's just deny
Our troubles tonight
That our normal lives are full of
The world will fly by
The stars will burn bright-
ly, and - we will just ignore it
I will supply
Your every delight
Before you ask me for it
You don't have to go
Right now
But you should
Time is spinning by
Somehow
The morning is approaching
Enjoy the status quo
For now.
It's understood
That when the sunlit sky
Avows
Reality encroaching
Let's stay right here
We'll just disappear
From it all
And ignore life's call-ing...
These idle hands
Make no plans
For beyond
After the dawn
Our secret bond
Remains right here
I don't know why
You're getting dressed now
The fun is only starting
Take off that tie
I'll come and endow (you with)
This passion we're imparting
Think of the fun
We'll have as we squeal (at the)
Trouble we could land in
Avoiding the sun and
Enjoying our feel-ings
(With) Unrestrained abandon
You don't have to leave
Right now
But you should
Or stay another day
There's so
Much left to discover
(There's) Nothing up my sleeve
Except nails
And wood
I'm hammering away
At how
To make us better lovers
To make us better lovers
To make us better lovers
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14. |
Flea
03:31
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Flea - Gwade
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What do you say
We fool around?
Dinner for two
And a night on the town?
With you....
With you....
What do you say
We run away
I'll pack my things
and leave today
With you....
With you....
One of these days
You'll understand
I'm no martyr
I'm just a man
I can't give it all to you
So I'll just give what I can
What do you say
We start a search
For the perfect kind of
Wedding-Church
For you....
For you....
What do you say
We find a place
I'll lay you down
And give my grace
To you....
To you....
One of these days
You'll understand
I'm no martyr
I'm just a man
I can't give it all to you
So I'll just give what I can
<instrumental>
You're the best thing that I ever had
My desire for you is driving me mad
And I'll make you breakfast
If you don't make me mad....
What do you say
I build a house
And spend my life
With a perfect Spouse
Like you....
Like you....
What do you say
We fool around?
Dinner for two
And a night on the town?
With you....
With you....
One of these days
You'll understand
I'm no martyr
I'm just a man
I can't give it all to you...
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15. |
Too Much Tequila
04:19
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too much tequila - Gwade
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well, i opened my eyes
as a gorgeous sunrise
gently kissed the side of my head
but all i could feel
were rivets of steel
so i crawled right back under the bed
:
now too much tequila
has taken its toll
my wallet is empty
but my liver is full
and i don't feel sorrow
for what might have been
if it hadn't been tequila
it would have been gin
now you may ask why
i don't want to be dry
and if i did i'd buy me a towel
but before i reply
i just might die
with my head soaked in mezcal
now too much tequila
has taken its toll
my brain, it is wasted
and i'm out of control
and i am not sorry
that i wound up here
if it hadn't been tequila
it would have been beer
i once had a girl
blah blah blah blah
she was insert feature here
i don't need no one else
to get feelin' top shelf
tequila makes my head too clear
now too much tequila
keeps me from bein' cold
my wallet is empty
oh, wait! it's been stol(en)
and i don't feel sorry
that my life's not top notch
if it hadn't been tequila
it would have been scotch
too much tequila
has gone down my drain
i go to bed lonely
but wake up with this pain
and i have my freedom
and a mem'ry or two
if it hadn't been tequila
it would have been you
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16. |
How Are The Angels?
04:52
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How Are The Angels? - Gwade
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Some preacherman tried to recruit you to be on his squad
And convinced you that I am some devil holding you back from God
Now I must admit I've been accused of this one before
(But I've) long since abandoned the horns and the tail I once wore.
{interlude}
You said you were leaving as tears spilled from giant, brown eyes
"It's not s'posed to hurt," you cried after saying "Goodbye,"
You expected the angels to carry your sadness away
But no angels came, and it still hurts at the end of the day
So how are the angels?
Are they treating you right?
Do they hold you like I did
All through the night?
In a world where beliefs take down buildings with "acceptable loss"
Who am I to tell you that I matter more than a cross?
And I understand that you need to feel good about you
But remember that those you leave standing below you hurt, too
So how are the angels?
Are they drying your eyes?
Was the cost of submission
Well worth the prize?
I won't pretend there's no bias buried in my advice
But all I can hope is that maybe it'll make you think twice
And after you've asked those you trust and heard what they've said
Listen___ to what's in your head
It may be too late to get back to the good place we were in
Right now I don't trust that it wouldn't explode into sin
And I hold no hatred for Kharma or angels or you
But preachers who issue commands in christ's name are breaking
Commandment number two
So how are the angels?
Have you figured it out?
Can you be a good person
Without being devout?
How are the angels
And their heavenly sounds?
Are they holding you up (or "Are they keeping your spirits up?")
Or holding you down?
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